~Desire~

October 19, 2009

I think it’s immediately before, or perhaps shortly after they leave that we begin to feel a small emptiness inside of us. It’s an emptiness not as great as a loss because they do still exist, but a loss from our everyday routine. One that we were becoming accustomed to and one we looked forward to occurring regularly. Some people cause the most extreme amount of happiness one has ever felt, others cause confusion and grief, and then some just pass us by, but without fail, each of these people shape us into who we are; today, and who we are becoming tomorrow.

There are times our minds travel to this other world where outsiders may assume we are day dreaming, but it is the place we go to when we argue back and forth to ourselves. Questioning if it was true, was it worth it, why is this happening...again? It is good to question and it is good to accept what the reality of the situation is. To think rationally is to think realistically. Is it? Is it important to understand what is most likely going to happen? For the part that is “most likely going to happen”; does it have to be negative? Does it have to end? Does it have to be that someone is going to get hurt? Does it have to be heart-ache and torment? No.

Who’s to say the end result isn’t a prince charming sweeping you off your feet? If it happened to someone else, why can’t it happen to you?

Hear me when I say it’s not you that this keeps happening to. Hear me when I say, it will happen to you as well, just give it time. You have, I’m sure, more than one guardian angel watching over you, calculating the perfect time for everything to fall into place. This does not mean to just sit and wait, life doesn’t happen in that particular way. You must want it. You must send out the energy that you are here and you are alive; that your life is worth living and that you want this. That you want the best that life has to offer and you will live it the best way you know how to...

.....But without that desire and that burning passion for what you want, life will just pass you by.

AT, CW, WH~*~

Believe

October 15, 2009

What is it that makes us push our own happiness away? In this life, we all will have pain and we will all feel grief, loss, and even to an extent some form of betrayal. But what is it, or who is it, that says it has to linger? While we all experience these bad feelings, we also do experience feelings that in an instant turn our worlds upside down. The feelings that make your heart skip a beat, your insides tingle, goosebumps arise, and the feelings that cause you to smile without being able to stop. It’s those feelings and experiences that cause you to glow. Hold onto that.

Hold onto your happiness. Let go of your hurt.

Anyone can wonder ‘what if...’ for anysituation they wish happened differently, but is it worth it? Yes, maybe that situation caused massive amounts of pain, but have you not felt one moment of happiness since then? It isat these times that we must give ourselves options and weigh them out to the greatest extremes. Do you want to cry everyday about something which cannot be changed? Or do you want to wake up in the morning, take a deep breath, smile, and embrace what today has to offer?

Storms will come in out of nowhere, damaging all we believed to begood; destroying our hearts and tainting our souls. But after every storm, somewhere, there is a rainbow glowing brightly for us to wish upon. You must understand, the rainbow you see is the last bit of the storm clashing with the rays of sunshine breaking through the clouds, and at this moment there is peace and there is clarity. In our lives, there are going to be storms, some damaging more than others, but please always remember there will be a rainbow for you. You may not always see the beauty, but it’s up to you to believe it’s there,and it’s up to you, to sometimes bring your own sunshine.

Remember the pain you have felt, but don’t live this pain. It can and will consume you if you let it. Remember before the pain, and reminisce on the moments when you felt no pain. Do you feel that? Can you feel your heart beginning to race? Perhaps an extreme urge to cry will come over you. That sensation will be you breaking free from the torment of the past that has been haunting you. The ghosts from your past are those refusing to let you go, refusing to let you live and grow. These ghosts cause you to continue to live in this torturous lifestyle with a lingering feeling of hatred, regret, and solitude.

Rise above.

You can. Look deep inside and be the wild horse running along the ocean surf. Break free and live the life you want to live. Live by your own rules and allow yourself to feel alive. It is your life, and you are the only one who can choose to make it worth living, and believe me, it’s always worth living.

Be you and be happy with who you are. You are amazing. Others will now see that rainbow, because you have become the sunshine breaking through their storms causing them to

BELIEVE.

A.T.~*~